I have a bunch of half-finished blogs in the works, and I doubt if they will ever get finished, so I am going to try to just start posting them, starting with this little gem that I started right after Thanksgiving.
2014.12.04_Here comes your 19th
nervous breakdown
Lately I have been seriously lacking
motivation.
I can’t even begin to count the number
of blogs I have started and then just completely lost my train of thought, and
wandered away.
I just put my suitcase away yesterday
from the trip I got back from almost a month ago. I still have not put away all
of the clean clothes. In fact the bedroom currently looks like a bomb went off
in a shoe store/boutique. But I did dust – or at least I started to dust – I
believe that the dust cloth is currently sitting on top of my ‘dresser’. I have
violated the first rule of cleaning – get a basket or a box to put things that
belong elsewhere in, and stay in one place until it’s finished. Instead I find
something that belongs in the kitchen, in the bedroom – so I take that one
thing back to the kitchen, only to stop to wash a dish, that is correct, one
dish. Then I come over here to the computer and recall some snippet of an idea
and start rambling on about that for a little bit. A N D then back to the
bedroom. Rinse and repeat – ADHD cleaning at its finest. By the time I get back
to the bedroom I have totally forgotten where I was trying to tidy-up in the
first place, and will in all probability wander off again because of it. That
or leave to find the phone so I can add another task to my Any.do list.
I need to get a list from the
Sidetracked Sisters.
My dosha is unbalanced and my chi is
totally screwed up – I feel like I am in this never ending loop of not getting
anything accomplished – not cleaning up the mess, but contributing to it. I
don’t think there is one area of this house that is totally put together – and
the funny thing is that I have created this chaos in just a little less than a
month. When I got back home from Orlando this place was like an Architectural
Digest photo-shoot waiting to happen. And I don’t know what happened!! I
usually have a pretty firm grip on the chaos around here, but once things get
out of control I can’t cope with it, I just freeze up and escape into a book or
something.
According to Ayurveda, I need to get on
a schedule, meditate twice a day, give up coffee – fat chance on the coffee
thing, and probably the schedule too.
I may not have disclosed that I have a
horrible tooth issue that I am trying to deal with – totally without any
results, every time I have to deal with change anymore I just freeze up. So I
can’t chew anything at the moment, which means it is impossible for me to eat
in public –(and the office holiday party is coming up in 10 days)- good thing I
bought the Nutra Ninja blender because I am going to be on a smoothie and soup
diet, which is fine with me because I like them both. Hopefully if I make my
own soups instead of the frozen or boxed kind, I will save a little money. The beneficial side effect of all this is that I have lost weight and am now almost back to where I was before my birthday last year, and all the candy and cookies that started to show up from then until Christmas.
I need to figure out a way to get more
followers for this blog –
And that's the way it ended - with half a thought.
Peace and Love from Anna
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