I used to blog all the time when I was on myspace – and, oh,
for the record – I think myspace’s profile pages were much, much nicer than
facebook and you could get really great templates and customize them with all
sorts of cool stuff. Mine was the best!! I had my own little alter ego and
avatar, did really cool picture blogs – and then everybody bailed and that’s
why I’m on facebook. I don’t prefer it but it’s where all my friends are.
But, I digress - I haven’t blogged in a very long time
because I really didn’t think that anybody would be interested in reading my half-crazy
rants. Then again, I don’t really care – for some reason I really like to air
my dirty laundry on the world-wide web. To me it’s literally throwing my thoughts
out to the Universe/God and hoping that it/he will hear them – and they always
do. It takes a long time to get a reaction sometimes , but sooner or later it
will come. Lately I’ve been having some really interesting thought processes
going on and I have been writing about them, and I started to think that maybe
there actually is someone out there who would be interested in hearing what it’s
like to be an online student after 46 years or why the hell do they keep
reducing my Social Security benefits? Or they might like to know what it feels
like to be starting from scratch at 65 years old because you lost everything
you owned due to unemployment. And there are other subjects too, like a whole plethora
of ‘what if’s’. What if I didn’t move to Florida, what if I didn’t have to move
to Germany? That one on its own is HUGE!!! Every single thing that is my life is
a direct result of that one event. A defining moment – we all have one. Sometimes
it’s our choice, and sometimes we have no choice. You turned right when you
could have turned left. And from that one pivotal moment on there are thousands
of choices that subtly alter your future.
What would have happened if I had not moved to Germany? I don’t know. But
that’s all for now – I am definitely going to be exploring that last subject in
greater depth sometime soon, but not now…. Gwyneth Paltrow was in a really good
movie titled Sliding Doors which is about this very subject, I suggest you
watch it.
What about you fictitious reader? What was your defining
moment? Was it your decision, or someone elses? Did you regret it? I can
honestly say without a shadow of a doubt, that I have regretted pretty much every
decision that I have made since my Dad made the decision to take a job in
Germany. This, of course opens up a
whole new can of worms on the subject of when your decisions affect other
people – or makes other people.
Great advice Tupac - I will try to take myself less seriously.
And, as I go to post this, I think it is almost uncanny that
I said some of the exact same things in one of the previous blog that I had posted – I forgot
about that blog!! Anyway, I’m not changing it; let’s just call it reinforcing
the principle. (wtf?) If you are a new fictitious reader of my blog I advise you scroll down to the first one & read your way up, really informative. And don't worry, I don't usually delve into really serious subjects.
DON'T FORGET TO FEED THE FISH!!
